Why me? Why now?

Romans 5:3-5 – More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

Why me? Why now?  . . . . . Two Fridays ago much like any other day I went to the gym. I jumped on the Elliptical and proceeded to “run” my 3+ miles. Later that night I was “privileged” to be a part of a Church lock-in for 7th grade boys. We played dodge ball and rough housed like you would expect with 7th grade boys. I managed 2 hours of sleep that night. I turned 49 the week prior and for a guy this old I’ve held up pretty well. I eat well, I’m active, my Cholesterol is good and other than a little stress at work my life is wonderful! How quickly things can change . . .

The following Monday I didn’t feel well so I went to see the doctor had a check-up/physical. I was diagnosed with high blood pressure and went on my way. A mere 24 hours later I was being told by an emergency physician that I was having an acute Heart Attack and I was being rushed into surgery. He was right, within 48 minutes of entering the Emergency room I was being wheeled into my recovery room. They saved my life.

However, the questions brought on by this event, that have filled my head and heart have been too numerous to count. In regard to my health, we made a list of questions to ask the Cardiac Specialist and the first one was . . . Why me? Why now? . . . . This question applies to my demographics but also to my faith. Psalm 73:16 – But when I thought how to understand this, it seemed to me a wearisome task,. Here I am a pretty healthy guy and BOOM! I’m one bad decision away from being dead. Had I decided to drive into work that morning that may have been the outcome. Thus far 2011 has not been a banner year for me, no matter what I do I just can’t seem to get on top of things. So again I cry out to God for answers to things I have no way of knowing.

In the end, when we’re faced with life’s dilemmas, we must rely on our faith in God’s Word to see us through these periods. We must look to the good that comes from such events to bring about His purpose, build our character and strengthen our faith in Him so we may share it with others. There is no greater purpose in life.

In the weeks to come, I will have more to say about this event and the little things that has God pointed out. I closing, I thought the fourth verse from Jesus Loves Me was very appropriate here. It’s a great reminder of His sacrifice and how we should approach everyday of our lives  . . . . .  God Willing!

 Jesus loves me! He will stay, close beside me all the way.

Thou hast bled and died for me, I will henceforth live for Thee.

Psalms 94:19 – When the cares of my heart are many, your consolations cheer my soul.

4 thoughts on “Why me? Why now?”

  1. Hope you are feeling much better! Will be praying for continued good health for you. Thank you for reminding all of us that we MUST rely on our faith in God’s Word to “see us through” these periods. We serve an awesome God!!! Blessings to you and your family. Take care! 🙂

  2. It certainly gives each of us a “wake-up call” in terms of realizing once again that God is in charge! He counts on us to follow his word and have faith that he is always by our side. I love the song “Trust and Obey” as it reminds me in very simple words what he expects of me. Thank you for sharing with all of us the impact this has had on you and your faith.

  3. Jim. Thanks for your sharing your experience and faith. We will continue to pray for your full recovery. God bless you and yours.

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